This is strange! A round red room! I mean, seriously: the room is round! With soft red carpet! That is just great, I love it! It matches my bra and my gag! I want to roll around in this room! The floor is so nice! Yes, I know, I am strange. But I don’t care, just leave me and my round red room fun!!

Wow I found this spreader bar with 4 attachment points! And I have 4 limbs! What a coincidence! I couldn’t wait to cuff myself to this bar and feel helpless and powerless. Unable to stand up, or do anything, I could just roll around and have fun! Yes, this is my old chastity belt because this was shot some time ago, but don’t worry, I’m still training in my NeoSteel!!

Yaay I love heavy chains! No cuffs this time, just chains! But chains can be restrictive too! Around the neck and waist and then attached to the wrists, with lots of padlocks! It was impossible to get out! I love it 🙂 Oh do you like my green ball gag? I know, it is VERY green, but I love colored gags, I have many colors, so I can match my outfit and mood!

Now that Roxanne is appearing on this website too, many duo requests have come in! You seem to be interested in escape challenges that involve us both! For example, can we escape if we are cuffed into a hugging position? We tried a few ways, and it is very complicated! I’m glad that you like my friend Roxanne, and I hope you will like her in her matching collar as well! She is a sweetheart, and we always have lots of fun together!!

Even boring tasks can be made more fun when you are in bondage! I know a lot of you agree, because I keep getting so many emails from fans telling me about their bound life! Well, my bound life is (as you know) governed by strict rules. I can not watch tv or use any internet device without being gagged, cuffed, and collared. But for laundry and ironing… I really have to cuff or restrain myself to even do it! Otherwise it would be no fun at all, and I would never do it! Let me know if you recognize this!

Here’s an update I did earlier: a request from a member! He asked if regular handcuffs will fit on my ankles! I wasn’t sure, because my ankles are not very thin, and usually I cuff them in leg irons (ankle cuffs), not small handcuffs! But I did it! It was no problem, except for the fact that I could not walk or stand because they were really tight! It was fun to try, and it is a really good way of restraining me! Ooops, I shouldn’t tell you these kinds of things, they are always used against me…

A fan sent me this ring gag mask! I get so many things from fans, it is amazing! Usually though, you don’t realize how small I am, and most things that I receive are way too big. This ring gag mask is a little big and not very well made, but it is not bad! I couldn’t see and I couldn’t speak, which is the point of this bondage item, so I guess it was a success!! A big thanks to the fan who sent me this one! I may try to sleep in it tonight, if I can get it a little tighter on the chin. Haha 😀

I’m so happy!! And scared at the same time! Here’s the story: after I spent 2 years of my life in a chastity belt, locked 24/7 (between 2008 and 2010), I had given up chastity life. Sure, I occasionally wear my belt, but not for longer than a day. I thought those days were over, and it was a long time ago. Until a fan offered to get me a custom made real NeoSteel belt as a very expensive gift! I had to think long and hard, because I did not want to give up my freedom once again, but I finally made the decision: I got a NeoSteel belt!! I am not locked into it 24/7 yet, as I need to build up my tolerance again (it is very hard to wear a chastity belt), but I have dedicated myself to training again, and I will build up to the level where I can give away the keys for at least 30 days, if not longer. Wish me luck and MERRY CHRISTMAS!! What have I done!!! Please let me know what you think about this decision!

So many people ask me about walking in leg irons! Yes, it can hurt if you do not practice enough. And you have to be very careful! The achilles heel changes shape when you are walking so don’t make them too tight or you won’t be able to move! I have seen people wearing boots and all kinds of protection, but I will prove it is just practice!! I will walk up lots of stairs of my nurse organisation’s office in leg irons and a waist chain, please study the video carefully!

A chastity belt and a straitjacket. I think it is a little bit too much, I couldn’t touch myself in the belt! Why the straitjacket?! Hahah, I’m just kidding, I love it! The more restraints the better! I love struggling around in a straitjacket and yes, you can see my belt clearly, but I don’t really care. Have a good look but don’t stare! Behave!

This new fiddle is quite heavy! It is a good size (maybe a little big for the neck but I can’t get out, don’t worry). It uses a different closing mechanism and I can not figure out how to open it! That’s quite bad because I am left here on the bed, with a key (or at least I think it is the key, some kind of tool), and I have to try to get out!! Horrible! It is heavy and uncomfortable! What if I can’t get out? I would have to sleep like this! Haha, well actually I love to sleep in fiddles, did it many times before, so don’t worry 😉

A member request! This black bondage tape is fun! I have had it for years, in pink and black, and there are many things you can do with it! It only sticks to itself, and not to hair, so it is perfect for gags! You wanted to see me gag myself with this tape so here we go! An open mouth tape gag for you! This was fun! Any more fun requests? Send them in!

Many years ago, I did an update about full chastity. In the recent years, chastity stuff has become much better (and better looking!), so I thought I would show you what I have at the moment. This is what I wear when I am not allowed to touch myself, not even my boobs. And since it is now getting colder in Holland, I can easily hide all this under my winter clothes! It is so much fun being on the train or on the streets wearing this under my thick warm clothes! I feel so safe and protected!

Bondage frame!! I love being forced into a position that you can’t get out of, especially if it has lots of metal and cuffs! This cuffing frame is awesome, I am ankle cuffed and handcuffed to it. My arms are behind me so I am forced to bend over. Very vulnerable! What if someone walked behind me? I couldn’t do anything! It is a little hard on the shoulders, but I am sure you will love this position too!! Try it at home!

A request!! I finally found leg irons big enough to fit around these big army boots I have! The only problem is, they are Irish 8 ones, so I can not move at all! I do love Irish 8 however, I should maybe go to Ireland one day to find out if their police really use them! Seems rather strict! I love it! My small Irish 8 handcuffs are probably my favorite cuffs in the world, I have spent more time in those than in any other cuffs!

My friend Roxanne has know about my bondage preferences for a long time! She is my friend and she will occasionally help me to stay in bondage (watch over me in dangerous situations, or hold the keys to my restraints or chastity belt). She is a dominant person I think. But lately she has been more and more interested in my gear, so I thought it was time to introduce her to a little bondage. What better way to start than a fiddle!! Fiddles are so much fun! And of course she needed to be gagged too. My red harness ballgag looks hot on her!

I was visiting an old asylum, but sadly there’s not much left of it. Still, I felt like it was very appropriate to wear a straitjacket and no shoes while I was inside! There was no one there, so why not! Okay, well there were a few people downstairs and there was a guy on the roof of the next building, they could have seen me. Maybe they did, but as usual, no one said anything! I love these white tiles and hard cold floors! I wish I could be in an asylum for a few months, I would love it! I’m already crazy, so why not! Whahaha!

I was visiting Roxanne at the huge office building where she works and I spotted this perfect wardrobe! Needless to say, we went back on another day (in the evening, when almost everyone was gone), and we had some fun with it! It is perfect for being cuffed!! I wish I had a wardrobe like this at home! You can even close the heavy doors! I secretly wish I would have been left there, only to be discovered by office managers the next day!!

I found my 3 kilo collar again! And this time a nut and bolt are locking it, which I can not open with my fingers! But never mind that, look at this awesome cage! It was custom built and once you are locked in, you can not get out without the use of a hex key. There’s no padlock or visible door when it is closed! My head poked through the top and my collar was locked to the cage with heavy chains. This cage is so small, even for me!! I just love metal!

Oooooh I got this new posture collar!! So I wanted to try it straight away! It’s very different, it has an actual chin rest! Which is great! I can not move my head at all, but at least my face can rest! I am also strapped in one of those armbag armbinders, they are very comfortable as well! You might say this is a very comfortable update!! Hmm, well, I have to be honest, the posture collar is a little big for me, so if anyone wants to buy it just contact me!