This would be my perfect life! In prison, wrists cuffed and ballgag (unable to remove ballgag). Such a dream life! I wish this was possible 24/7! I really need to find a rich guy who can support me (so I don’t have to work) and who can afford a private prison in the basement. I wouldn’t need anything else! Just this life! Please someone do this to me forever!!!!
Thanks all for your lovely questions and requests about my NeoSteel chastity belt! I am still locked (all three keys are with Roxanne currently), and it is going very well. I can use the toilet with the belt on. I can sleep, eat, run, drive a car, and go to work. No one seems to notice my belt. But I still need cleaning breaks, so I am allowed to take it off for a good shower and clean once a week, because otherwise infections and irritations might start to develop!!
OMG we received a double ballgag! So much fun! It’s basically two ballgags riveted together! So when you are gagged with a friend, you really are very close together! Actually our noses were touching! It is very hard to move, because I didn’t want to hurt Roxanne, and getting up or sitting down requires a lot of coordinating. Which is hard if you can not talk. Remember, only try this if you are VERY good friends!
A lot of fans have emailed me about my new NeoSteel belt. Yes, I am trying to stay locked (hopefully forever from now on) and no, I don’t have the keys. Roxanne has the keys at the moment. There are 3 keys, she has all of them, but maybe I should only let her have 1 key and distribute the other 2 to other people or places. Male and female fans have asked me how I can sleep in my belt. I do not understand this question. I mean, you just sleep. My belt is a super perfect fit, and it is very comfortable, I can do anything in my belt, including sleeping. Good night!
Oooh look at my new red leather cuffs! Wrist cuffs and elbow cuffs! I am cuffed in a very comfortable position, I could stay like this for hours… no for days!! I love these cuffs because they have tiny little slots so you can make them very tight. And then you can use padlocks to secure them. They are very sturdy thick leather, so no escape!
I love struggling with my best friend Roxanne! Being in a hogcuff position is so much fun, but it’s even better if your best friend is cuffed on the floor next to you! Try it at home! All you need is two pairs of handcuffs and two pairs of ankle cuffs! No padlocks needed! It’s quite hard to get out of a hogcuff, but maybe we can do it if we work together?
Hands cuffed to my belt, a nice soda, and watching TV. That’s a nice relaxed evening for me. Actually, I’m cheating because I am not allowed to watch TV without being gagged but wel… my hands are already cuffed to the belt so it is not my fault I can’t gag myself! Hahhaah :) Don’t worry, I will gag myself later! I hope you are enjoying some well deserved relaxation too, or maybe you are even relaxing by enjoying this update! Anyway, have fun!
Would you like to see how I do my make up? Well, probably like any other girl. Except for the ballgag and handcuffs of course, but that’s not my fault, that’s the fault of the other girls. They should be gagged and cuffed too, it is so much fun! I live a bound life, and it is my choice. I have been fired, laughed at, stared at, and more, but I don’t care. I’m almost always in cuffs and a gag. And always collared. That’s how I feel most safe and happy. It is my life.
I was making the bed when Roxanne dropped by. She is so funny! Roxanne is very curious about my chastity belt, so she takes every opportunity to look at it and ask lots of questions about it. I did not even know her yet when I was locked for 2 years (from 2008 till 2010), so for her it is all new. I don’t think she will ever lock herself in a chastity belt, but she sure is very curious!
(Yes, I am still locked in my chastity belt, this update was shot before I got locked in my NeoSteel) – I love five point restraints! Neck, wrists, and ankles! Especially if the chain is very short so I can not walk or stand up! It is fun, and I have spent many hours watching TV like this. Now, sleeping is a different story. It is possible, but please don’t try this unless you have some experience sleeping in cuffs. Make sure to double lock your cuffs (especially your neck cuff) so they can not tighten overnight!! Take care and have fun! xx
I know there are many fans of my outdoor ankle cuffed walks! I remember how many emails and comments I got whenever I posted an update about this. Because most of you like to take ankle cuffed walks too! That’s so great! I hope the weather is as nice as it is over here and you can make time for a nice ankle cuffed walk today. Go out, enjoy the sun! And comment here if you did ;)
I’m proud to be back in a chastity belt again! This awesome NeoSteel is the best belt ever! The fit is perfect, it is very secure! There is no way I can touch myself. I can use the toilet in the belt (both functions) and I can shower and take baths. Of course, some cleaning breaks will be necessary, but I do NOT have a key. Roxanne is holding two keys. The other one is in a safe at a secure location. It was quite easy to get back into wearing it, as I was locked from 2008 to 2010 I remembered all the little tricks and solutions. I guess it’s safe to say it will not come off for a long time! I’m so happy!
You probably remember I received a custom made NeoSteel belt at Christmas. And I have not worn it much. It was sent by a fan, but even after all the insisting from him and other fans, I was still hesitant to go back to the chastity lifestyle that I lived from 2008 till 2010. It is a hard life. Uncomfortable, and well… you can not have any pleasure, sex, boyfriends, or normal dates. But I’m now at a point in my life that I don’t care anymore. I am ready to go back in the belt, maybe forever. I will wear it and give my keys to Roxanne (after she gets over the initial shock, look at her face!!). She may let me out a few times in the first few weeks, as part of the training, or she may not. I will have to see. The belt is custom made and very comfortable compared to my old belts. I know how to clean and use the toilet, from years of experience. So I will be fine. I hope. Wish me luck!!
Fans send me so many lovely things I can not even remember which ones I showed you yet. This catsuit is amazing! It has some interesting openings! Combined with a lot of leather, I think it is very pretty! And I am back at my ballgag training again, so a big ballgag had to be worn as well, to stretch my jaw and get better at wearing big gags. I hope you like this update! x
I love the orange jumpsuit! If I lived in America, I would probably try to get myself arrested. It’s stronger than me, I can not help it! I would struggle and wriggle around in my orange jumpsuit all day and every day if I could! What I really need is someone to keep me as a prisoner 24/7. But unfortunately, that is not possible. Still, it is a very good fantasy and I love being an inmate! I hope you like it too! x
I had seen this RigidFiddle ball tie before, I just HAD to try this! If you lock a Fiddle to a pair of ankle cuffs, you will be forced into a ball tie, and it is very hard to escape! I love that thought! It is really a lot harder than it looks (please try this at home, to see what I mean)! Also, this is my 500th update!! Can you believe it!? I am going to celebrate whooooohoooo!!
This one was actually requested by a fan a long time ago! I did not really think it was possible, but then I realized I could run a chain through the Irish 8 handcuffs and ankle cuffs! It like a rigid bondage style with a chain in between. It gives me a little wriggle room but not much, because my wrists and ankles are so tightly cuffed! Very interesting! Thanks for the suggestion! x
I really love colored ballgags! Of course, red with black strap is a classic, but they don’t always match my outfit! I have colored straps and many colored balls, so I decided to do a little mixing and matching to find some interesting color combinations. After all, I wear a ballgag most of the day (I love watching TV, and I am only allowed to when I am gagged), so I might as well look good doing it! What is your favorite color combination? Tell me in the comments!!
A fan sent me these latex panties to wear and then sell to another fan! So I have to wear them for a few days, then find another fan who wants to buy them. That’s fun! I know there will be some of you who would be interested in buying these (send me an email please). These panties are really nice, and I love latex, it is such a great feeling to wear! Let’s see who will be the lucky new owner of these panties!!
We got these black leather bondage mitts and they look like a claw! I think I have received some other things that looked like these, remember this? Those were not very good (or I used them wrong). But these mitts actually fit and they seem very effective! You can attach something to the end, so Roxanne decided to put them around my neck to strange me with them, hahahah. Oh and Roxanne got this leopard mask, pretty nice, but a little silly for my taste! LOOOL!